That being said, while I've been stuck at home and looking for work while worrying about my daughter's schooling and said work, hold on, if I go down that route we're going to spiral...
Let's try this again.
It is time to give CrystalRaen.com a facelift. While stuck at home during the end of times scenario that is 2020 I've been doing some reflecting, mindset work, reading...basically anything I can do to avoid the fact that I'm not writing. (We will get into the not writing later.)
I decided 3 months ago to start working on restyling things.
And that's as far as I got, deciding. But I have had a fire lit under my ass by the universe who basically threw a huge sign at me and followed up with a friend who vehemently agrees with the universe that if I want to see something happen in my life, then I might need to actually start doing things instead of being frozen in a web of anxiety ridden fear and also just loathing myself for continually procrastinating. (This is why I am working on mindset stuff, just in case you were wondering.)
The idea right now is to use this blog to share what it is like being someone who really does want to be a writer, but is struggling with generalized anxiety, has a history of PPD as well as some medical issues, is a bit lost on what she wants to do in the real world for a real world job, and who juggles side hustles that are just tiny income streams right now. The struggle is real, but defeat is not an option, so let me share with you what I’m doing and maybe it can shed some light onto your own situation. Let’s get through this life together.
